Now here's an interesting sight, one not to be expected for several months yet. And no this is NOT daffodills from this year (2009 - for it has not warmed up quite this much yet!) I just thought I'd post this photo I took awhile back to start getting us looking forward again. Daffodills for Spring, and a freshly grass cut yard! I need to make some money so that this coming year, I can buy a riding lawnmower!
I want to touch on the subject of renewal today. I am starting to feel better about life in general, because of steps that I've been taking and because of some response that I've had from other people lately. Last year was all about clearing away debts and overwhelming obligations. What I thought would take several months - turned into a drama that lasted all year and is still ongoing. I played the "game" and tried for the big brass ring - I tried to do what others expected of me in order to "succeed" in life - I thought I was doing what I WANTED TO DO, but in reality, what I did was just fall into place behind a lot of other's expectations. Suffice it to say, it didn't work out and a lot of people got hurt. I also met and helped a lot of other people. I tried for 4 years to open and run a retail store for stained glass and just became overwhelmed with the response but did not have the money to operate properly. It all came crashing down and I had to escape. So here I am, in a place that I've always wanted to be - and it happened by chance and through other people lending me a hand. I have been up at my "cave" licking my wounds and sticking my head out of the cave every so often to see what is going on but pretty much just holing up. Putting one foot in front of the other - steady as she goes is the motto.
Now I am looking for a new beginning. I know what to do, now I just have to start DOING IT. So time to sign off here and get to it. . .
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